WELCOME

I 've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for almost five years.
Today I made the decision to start this online Journal, in the hope that it may be of assistance to others.
This disease really got the better of me this week.
I call it a disease because my body in definitely not at ease with this illness.
However when I say that, this disorder has been the reason behind my Spiritual Journey and my connection to God, in a much more simple way.
So here I am.
I meditate.
I breathe.
I speak and think positive thoughts.
Yet this week...
More fatigue...
Plus...
Plus...
So I found myself being extremely disappointed in my decline...
Anyone who has Chronic Fatigue, will relate to...
It's not about being tired or sleepy...
More like being in, a constant state of flu like symptoms...
No amount of sleep or relaxation helps...
So to go to my specialist and be given a lot of potential illnesses that can develop, sent me into more of a spin and even more disappointment in myself.
Perhaps up until this week, I may have been living in denial.
Most people don't even believe that it's an illness.
So now, I start again on a fairly strict regime of medication, low G.I. diet, limited sun and possible triggers of even more symptoms.
The hope is, that this regime will slow down or kill the bacteria that is responsible for this illness with-in my body.
So if you know of someone ,who may have Chronic Fatigue, or any other energy disorder, please be patient and kind to them...
In Love.
Rose

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THE THREE ASPECTS OF ME! (30.08.09)

While resting last night, the following became very clear to me, so I'll explain as simply as I remember it.
As most of you know I write on three different blogs and last night it became clear to me that some might think, how can this woman have Chronic Fatigue and still write entries elsewhere.
So...
My CF journal is very much about My Body...
My Breathing blog is about My Mind...
My I AM ROSE blog is My Spiritual connection to God....
All of these are aspects of Me, these blogs expose...
The Whole of Me...
My Body...Mind and Spirit.
How you might ask?
Read my entries and you'll find out.
The fatigue is what brought me to this place of... Stillness...Silence and Reflection...
So I thank the fatigue for this and I welcome the fatigue with Love...
It has served me well.
Now it is time to Live fully in...
The Now Moment.

Friday, July 9, 2010

WHEN THE WIND BLOWS OR DOSEN'T

Our cat's Taylor and Amber enjoying the sun coming through the window


I know it's a funny title,laughter is definitely the best medicine.
It's been very wet here and once again "The Todd" is flowing,this will be the fifth time since last September. A normally rare occurrence,seems to be whats happening on our planet right now.We are indeed going through many changes,on a physical level as well as planetary.
The fatigue is too present for my liking, making it more difficult for me to do what I want to do. We are having friends come form Adelaide today.They are staying with us for two weeks, it's hard not to feel overwhelmed before they even get here, so for now I'm just taking one breath at a time and living one moment at a time, trying not to get caught up in the what ifs of life. My friend also has an energy disorder, being the host will be a challenge.
I have a feeling of constant wind with-in my body, a reaction to the constant diarrhea and then the medication to stop it. Apparently I had a bug that only immune deficient people get,it's difficult to talk to a doctor who doesn't really understand CFS, so after eight weeks of this gut issue, now waiting on another test.
Love and Hugs.
Rose

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