WELCOME

I 've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for almost five years.
Today I made the decision to start this online Journal, in the hope that it may be of assistance to others.
This disease really got the better of me this week.
I call it a disease because my body in definitely not at ease with this illness.
However when I say that, this disorder has been the reason behind my Spiritual Journey and my connection to God, in a much more simple way.
So here I am.
I meditate.
I breathe.
I speak and think positive thoughts.
Yet this week...
More fatigue...
Plus...
Plus...
So I found myself being extremely disappointed in my decline...
Anyone who has Chronic Fatigue, will relate to...
It's not about being tired or sleepy...
More like being in, a constant state of flu like symptoms...
No amount of sleep or relaxation helps...
So to go to my specialist and be given a lot of potential illnesses that can develop, sent me into more of a spin and even more disappointment in myself.
Perhaps up until this week, I may have been living in denial.
Most people don't even believe that it's an illness.
So now, I start again on a fairly strict regime of medication, low G.I. diet, limited sun and possible triggers of even more symptoms.
The hope is, that this regime will slow down or kill the bacteria that is responsible for this illness with-in my body.
So if you know of someone ,who may have Chronic Fatigue, or any other energy disorder, please be patient and kind to them...
In Love.
Rose

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THE THREE ASPECTS OF ME! (30.08.09)

While resting last night, the following became very clear to me, so I'll explain as simply as I remember it.
As most of you know I write on three different blogs and last night it became clear to me that some might think, how can this woman have Chronic Fatigue and still write entries elsewhere.
So...
My CF journal is very much about My Body...
My Breathing blog is about My Mind...
My I AM ROSE blog is My Spiritual connection to God....
All of these are aspects of Me, these blogs expose...
The Whole of Me...
My Body...Mind and Spirit.
How you might ask?
Read my entries and you'll find out.
The fatigue is what brought me to this place of... Stillness...Silence and Reflection...
So I thank the fatigue for this and I welcome the fatigue with Love...
It has served me well.
Now it is time to Live fully in...
The Now Moment.

Friday, June 11, 2010

THE HEART CENTRE


I’m not sure if any of you are aware that we now live in what is commonly known as
“The Heart Centre”of Australia.
When I mediate and sit in stillness...
I connect to My Heart and Breathe...
I always Hear...
Feel and know that God is always near...
With every breath I breathe I am grateful for this Now Moment of time.
As I write this I’m aware that my bowel issue is still happening. I have supplied three specimens and will find out the result tomorrow.
I have had a couple of people in the last weeks directing bullying tactics at me. Over all this is extremely difficult to respond in any way, other than to say nothing. This seems to aggravate these people even more, so I find myself distancing me from them. To honor these individuals for who they are can be difficult, however in the action it’s my re-action that can have a huge or not so huge effect on my energy level.
The fatigue has been around a bit more these days and I really look forward to Friday my day off, giving me a three day week-end. This week I’m lucky enough to have four days off in a row as we celebrate the Queens birthday as a public holiday here in Australia. My doctor has put me on a new folic acid tablet, which I order from America .It’s meant to be a wonder tablet, relieving my current (ibs, fatigue, weight gain, blood pressure, hormone issues, headaches and muscle aches to name just a few of the symptoms. I’ll keep you all posted on the outcome.
It’s extremely cold here at night getting well below -0. The days are awesome with the sun shining most days, the warmth is quite amazing even on a low temperature day. We now have a gas heater and I’m looking forward to being able to use it later today.
To all my fellow readers and Blog friends...
Heart to Heart Love.
Rose

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