CHRONIC FATIGUE JOURNAL: SHINING BRIGHTLY

WELCOME

I 've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for almost five years.
Today I made the decision to start this online Journal, in the hope that it may be of assistance to others.
This disease really got the better of me this week.
I call it a disease because my body in definitely not at ease with this illness.
However when I say that, this disorder has been the reason behind my Spiritual Journey and my connection to God, in a much more simple way.
So here I am.
I meditate.
I breathe.
I speak and think positive thoughts.
Yet this week...
More fatigue...
Plus...
Plus...
So I found myself being extremely disappointed in my decline...
Anyone who has Chronic Fatigue, will relate to...
It's not about being tired or sleepy...
More like being in, a constant state of flu like symptoms...
No amount of sleep or relaxation helps...
So to go to my specialist and be given a lot of potential illnesses that can develop, sent me into more of a spin and even more disappointment in myself.
Perhaps up until this week, I may have been living in denial.
Most people don't even believe that it's an illness.
So now, I start again on a fairly strict regime of medication, low G.I. diet, limited sun and possible triggers of even more symptoms.
The hope is, that this regime will slow down or kill the bacteria that is responsible for this illness with-in my body.
So if you know of someone ,who may have Chronic Fatigue, or any other energy disorder, please be patient and kind to them...
In Love.
Rose

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THE THREE ASPECTS OF ME! (30.08.09)

While resting last night, the following became very clear to me, so I'll explain as simply as I remember it.
As most of you know I write on three different blogs and last night it became clear to me that some might think, how can this woman have Chronic Fatigue and still write entries elsewhere.
So...
My CF journal is very much about My Body...
My Breathing blog is about My Mind...
My I AM ROSE blog is My Spiritual connection to God....
All of these are aspects of Me, these blogs expose...
The Whole of Me...
My Body...Mind and Spirit.
How you might ask?
Read my entries and you'll find out.
The fatigue is what brought me to this place of... Stillness...Silence and Reflection...
So I thank the fatigue for this and I welcome the fatigue with Love...
It has served me well.
Now it is time to Live fully in...
The Now Moment.

Friday, April 30, 2010

SHINING BRIGHTLY

The sun is shining Oh!!! so brightly today as most days here.
So...A verse from Louise Hays "Healing Your Body" rings so true for me today, from memory it goes like this." The sun never stops shining, it may be clouded by our negative thinking for a while, but the sun never stops shinning" Brain fog is clouding my memory of this verse so I apologize for any mistakes. However this is so true for me today,I am not one who tends to stay in a negative mind set, as I have found it actually contributes to ill health with-in my body. I am very aware of my body's messages and recognize quickly when I'm out of balance. Most times it's environmental or emotional feelings with-in me that have been triggered by another. So I sit quietly,breathe,go with-in and connect with God in the stillness of the breath. This is my saving grace and healing begins for me when I'm ready to release what ever it may be in the moment of time. Anyway...
The temperature is starting to drop at night and stays low until about ten in the morning, so it's a layering of clothing that gets less during the day, a very different environment to what we are used too.
The fatigue is lingering making me wish for Friday (my day off) to come around quickly. My body is aching all over, as I feel my inflammatory response has flared up with this cooler climate. Headache, muscle aches,brain fog, malaise plus...All too familiar!!!
I'll try and get to the herbal shop today, as I was reading about Ginger, Turmeric, Green Tea and Rosemary being of great assistance to arthritis, so I'll try these.
Hugs, Balance and Love.
Rose

2 comments:

Renee said...: Hope you are feeling better by now. Like your quote!; May 5, 2010 at 8:00 AM
I AM ROSE said...: A big thank you to you Renee.
I've started drinking a herbal tea,has ginger,green tea and another anti-inflammatory tea in it. It has marginally helped with the joint pain.I'm starting on a regime of a seven day course of ant-biotics for inflammation in my gut. So I'll see how I go on this.
I hope that you are on the road to recovery, I've been thinking of you, but don't get a lot of blog time these days.
Love and Hugs.
Rose; May 5, 2010 at 4:09 PM