WELCOME

I 've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for almost five years.
Today I made the decision to start this online Journal, in the hope that it may be of assistance to others.
This disease really got the better of me this week.
I call it a disease because my body in definitely not at ease with this illness.
However when I say that, this disorder has been the reason behind my Spiritual Journey and my connection to God, in a much more simple way.
So here I am.
I meditate.
I breathe.
I speak and think positive thoughts.
Yet this week...
More fatigue...
Plus...
Plus...
So I found myself being extremely disappointed in my decline...
Anyone who has Chronic Fatigue, will relate to...
It's not about being tired or sleepy...
More like being in, a constant state of flu like symptoms...
No amount of sleep or relaxation helps...
So to go to my specialist and be given a lot of potential illnesses that can develop, sent me into more of a spin and even more disappointment in myself.
Perhaps up until this week, I may have been living in denial.
Most people don't even believe that it's an illness.
So now, I start again on a fairly strict regime of medication, low G.I. diet, limited sun and possible triggers of even more symptoms.
The hope is, that this regime will slow down or kill the bacteria that is responsible for this illness with-in my body.
So if you know of someone ,who may have Chronic Fatigue, or any other energy disorder, please be patient and kind to them...
In Love.
Rose

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THE THREE ASPECTS OF ME! (30.08.09)

While resting last night, the following became very clear to me, so I'll explain as simply as I remember it.
As most of you know I write on three different blogs and last night it became clear to me that some might think, how can this woman have Chronic Fatigue and still write entries elsewhere.
So...
My CF journal is very much about My Body...
My Breathing blog is about My Mind...
My I AM ROSE blog is My Spiritual connection to God....
All of these are aspects of Me, these blogs expose...
The Whole of Me...
My Body...Mind and Spirit.
How you might ask?
Read my entries and you'll find out.
The fatigue is what brought me to this place of... Stillness...Silence and Reflection...
So I thank the fatigue for this and I welcome the fatigue with Love...
It has served me well.
Now it is time to Live fully in...
The Now Moment.

Friday, April 9, 2010

A GENTLE REMINDER


OUR HOUSE
We have been very busy of late, unpacking box after box.
We both feel as if it is never ending. It's exciting somehow, like Christmas, we don't know what we're going to find until we open the next box.
The fatigue has been very present these last few weeks, causing quite a few challenges on all levels. On the up side I have had a very severe cold if not flu for the last week.
Oh! Too familiar, the feeling of complete malaise and fatigue. I say this is good if not great, because up until now my immune system has been slow to pick up on any viruses or bacteria, yet this time I had a really good dose and my immune system has kicked in, so I'm viewing this as a positive.
The new home has many small niggling problems, some more serious that others. It rained here for six hour straight causing "The Todd River" to flow again, this is the third time in four months. According to the people of the land we're considered true locals now.
Until next time.
Hugs and Prayer's to You All.
Rose

2 comments:

Renee said...

Fun to read this, Rose....

I AM ROSE said...

Thanks Renee.
Today, I don't feel too funny, feeling very flat.
Hope I lightened your day and helped in some way.
Love and Hugs.
Rose

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