WELCOME

I 've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for almost five years.
Today I made the decision to start this online Journal, in the hope that it may be of assistance to others.
This disease really got the better of me this week.
I call it a disease because my body in definitely not at ease with this illness.
However when I say that, this disorder has been the reason behind my Spiritual Journey and my connection to God, in a much more simple way.
So here I am.
I meditate.
I breathe.
I speak and think positive thoughts.
Yet this week...
More fatigue...
Plus...
Plus...
So I found myself being extremely disappointed in my decline...
Anyone who has Chronic Fatigue, will relate to...
It's not about being tired or sleepy...
More like being in, a constant state of flu like symptoms...
No amount of sleep or relaxation helps...
So to go to my specialist and be given a lot of potential illnesses that can develop, sent me into more of a spin and even more disappointment in myself.
Perhaps up until this week, I may have been living in denial.
Most people don't even believe that it's an illness.
So now, I start again on a fairly strict regime of medication, low G.I. diet, limited sun and possible triggers of even more symptoms.
The hope is, that this regime will slow down or kill the bacteria that is responsible for this illness with-in my body.
So if you know of someone ,who may have Chronic Fatigue, or any other energy disorder, please be patient and kind to them...
In Love.
Rose

Day1 follows BELOW

THE THREE ASPECTS OF ME! (30.08.09)

While resting last night, the following became very clear to me, so I'll explain as simply as I remember it.
As most of you know I write on three different blogs and last night it became clear to me that some might think, how can this woman have Chronic Fatigue and still write entries elsewhere.
So...
My CF journal is very much about My Body...
My Breathing blog is about My Mind...
My I AM ROSE blog is My Spiritual connection to God....
All of these are aspects of Me, these blogs expose...
The Whole of Me...
My Body...Mind and Spirit.
How you might ask?
Read my entries and you'll find out.
The fatigue is what brought me to this place of... Stillness...Silence and Reflection...
So I thank the fatigue for this and I welcome the fatigue with Love...
It has served me well.
Now it is time to Live fully in...
The Now Moment.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

DAY 33-34


Photo taken at Murray Bridge.
Today I had a GP appointment, she's not well today, so my visit will have to wait for a couple of days.
My blood pressure is still unstable.
My whole body is so fatigued, I had forgotten that feeling.
My head is foggy (spelling and typing interesting).
Very thirsty and very fatigued today.
Aches and pains all over body.
Yuk!
Strange marks and dermatitis on hands.
Having a Natropath appointment tomorrow,which includes massage, hoping that this will help.
In Love.
Rose

2 comments:

Renee said...

Sure hope you are feeling better soon Rose.
When I found your blog and you were a Rose from Australia who was writing a book....I thought you were my friend Rose from an onine CFIDS support group from Bruce Campbell's program...Rose is also from Australia and writing a book!
I realized quickly that you are not her, but I am so glad we have met and are connecting in the blogging world!
Wishing you healing and strength.

I AM ROSE said...

Thanks for your words of encouragement Renee.
I feel I struggle with this illness, because on a very deep emotional level there is healing going on. I just can't quite put my finger on it.
So for now I'm surrendering and releasing.
I know who I am, but feel that my own family don't and what's worst, is that they don't even want to.
Although this may sound self centred, I feel and know I'm coming from the loving space of my heart. This alone is enough to cause issues. So my trust and faith in God is my saving grace.
In Love.
Rose

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