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I 've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for almost five years.
Today I made the decision to start this online Journal, in the hope that it may be of assistance to others.
This disease really got the better of me this week.
I call it a disease because my body in definitely not at ease with this illness.
However when I say that, this disorder has been the reason behind my Spiritual Journey and my connection to God, in a much more simple way.
So here I am.
I meditate.
I breathe.
I speak and think positive thoughts.
Yet this week...
More fatigue...
Plus...
Plus...
So I found myself being extremely disappointed in my decline...
Anyone who has Chronic Fatigue, will relate to...
It's not about being tired or sleepy...
More like being in, a constant state of flu like symptoms...
No amount of sleep or relaxation helps...
So to go to my specialist and be given a lot of potential illnesses that can develop, sent me into more of a spin and even more disappointment in myself.
Perhaps up until this week, I may have been living in denial.
Most people don't even believe that it's an illness.
So now, I start again on a fairly strict regime of medication, low G.I. diet, limited sun and possible triggers of even more symptoms.
The hope is, that this regime will slow down or kill the bacteria that is responsible for this illness with-in my body.
So if you know of someone ,who may have Chronic Fatigue, or any other energy disorder, please be patient and kind to them...
In Love.
Rose
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THE THREE ASPECTS OF ME! (30.08.09)
While resting last night, the following became very clear to me, so I'll explain as simply as I remember it.
As most of you know I write on three different blogs and last night it became clear to me that some might think, how can this woman have Chronic Fatigue and still write entries elsewhere.
So...
My CF journal is very much about My Body...
My Breathing blog is about My Mind...
My I AM ROSE blog is My Spiritual connection to God....
All of these are aspects of Me, these blogs expose...
The Whole of Me...
My Body...Mind and Spirit.
How you might ask?
Read my entries and you'll find out.
The fatigue is what brought me to this place of... Stillness...Silence and Reflection...
So I thank the fatigue for this and I welcome the fatigue with Love...
It has served me well.
Now it is time to Live fully in...
The Now Moment.
Grrrrrr.....
Hi to all who read this.
It's been ages since I've had the energy or the ability to share here. I have had a very severe set back with CFS, making it extremely difficult to keep working. I have just built up enough courage to ask my manager to drop a days work and she agreed to it without hesitation. I realized I was going down the same path as five years ago and chose to stop pushing myself, stop being hard on myself, stop judging myself and most of all stop feeling as though I am not good enough. It has taken a lot of inner searching and lot's of quite time to appreciate what my body is telling me at all times. It certainly doesn't mean that I always like what I'm feeling, however statistically I have come to an understanding of my limitations. I very much live in the now moment, this has been my saving grace and with God's help and ever presence I AM worthy...of my life. I would just like to thank you all for your journey sharing, as we are indeed all in this together.
Love and Gentle Hugs.
Rose
IN LOVE AND GRATITUDE FOR YOUR COMMENTS
This blog is intended to be a place of healing and sharing.
My hope is that All who visit, benefit in some way from
my own experience of this mysterious energy disorder.
I welcome any comments via the address below and will answer any questions to the best of my ability.
Contact me at:
rosehasit@yahoo.com
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