WELCOME

I 've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for almost five years.
Today I made the decision to start this online Journal, in the hope that it may be of assistance to others.
This disease really got the better of me this week.
I call it a disease because my body in definitely not at ease with this illness.
However when I say that, this disorder has been the reason behind my Spiritual Journey and my connection to God, in a much more simple way.
So here I am.
I meditate.
I breathe.
I speak and think positive thoughts.
Yet this week...
More fatigue...
Plus...
Plus...
So I found myself being extremely disappointed in my decline...
Anyone who has Chronic Fatigue, will relate to...
It's not about being tired or sleepy...
More like being in, a constant state of flu like symptoms...
No amount of sleep or relaxation helps...
So to go to my specialist and be given a lot of potential illnesses that can develop, sent me into more of a spin and even more disappointment in myself.
Perhaps up until this week, I may have been living in denial.
Most people don't even believe that it's an illness.
So now, I start again on a fairly strict regime of medication, low G.I. diet, limited sun and possible triggers of even more symptoms.
The hope is, that this regime will slow down or kill the bacteria that is responsible for this illness with-in my body.
So if you know of someone ,who may have Chronic Fatigue, or any other energy disorder, please be patient and kind to them...
In Love.
Rose

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THE THREE ASPECTS OF ME! (30.08.09)

While resting last night, the following became very clear to me, so I'll explain as simply as I remember it.
As most of you know I write on three different blogs and last night it became clear to me that some might think, how can this woman have Chronic Fatigue and still write entries elsewhere.
So...
My CF journal is very much about My Body...
My Breathing blog is about My Mind...
My I AM ROSE blog is My Spiritual connection to God....
All of these are aspects of Me, these blogs expose...
The Whole of Me...
My Body...Mind and Spirit.
How you might ask?
Read my entries and you'll find out.
The fatigue is what brought me to this place of... Stillness...Silence and Reflection...
So I thank the fatigue for this and I welcome the fatigue with Love...
It has served me well.
Now it is time to Live fully in...
The Now Moment.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

WET...WET...WET


As I write this I'm aware of the extreme weather conditions around our much loved planet.
The snow most overseas people are experiencing, the earth quakes, the heat waves down south where we lived all our lives, to the rain and more rain producing floods all over our state and around different states of Australia.
It's been amazing to see "The Todd River" flowing, as this is rare, it really gets this town of Alice Springs buzzing with tourist and locals capturing this on film. We are expecting more rain today and perhaps more flowing of "The Todd".
There are many parts of the Territory that have been cut off due to flooding of the highways, even "The Ghan" train was unable to get here from Darwin due to water affecting the tracks.The supermarkets and food outlets depend on this rail track for our food supplies.It gives a whole new meaning to remote living and brings home the true value of resources we have all become dependent on. It's all good though as we continue to be in awe of this place.
On the job front I have just received confirmation of being successful in a job that really is one of my passions. Earlier in 2009 I was keen to set up a respite centre for carer's of people with Mental Illness. I always felt I didn't have the skills to achieve this, the energy or the resources to do so. I would have been happy to be an Administrator's Assistant. Well I have come almost 2,000 Kms to achieve this. I felt right from the moment we arrived here there was a reason, this as well as a few others( that are related to my husband) is definitely why.
The Fatigue still reminds me at times to pace, the Blood Pressure issue continues.
All in all I look forward with positivity and excitement as we embark on the next phase of our adventure, purchasing a home here, as we are ready to call Alice Springs home.
I continue to trust that God is leading us to where we are meant to be in any given moment.
I hope that this trust flows like a ripple effect to all who read this.
In Love.
Rose

2 comments:

Renee said...

Your job opportunity sounds good, Rose....
Yes, the devastation around the world is difficult to grasp at times...it is a rough year for weather. Makes me very thankful for the shelter and care I have here at home.

Dominique said...

I just wanted to let you know I enjoyed reading your posts. I especially like your body, mind and soul perspective.

I have added a link to your blog to mine.

I will visit again.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and struggles.

IN LOVE AND GRATITUDE FOR YOUR COMMENTS

This blog is intended to be a place of healing and sharing.
My hope is that All who visit, benefit in some way from my own experience of this mysterious energy disorder.
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