WELCOME

I 've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for almost five years.
Today I made the decision to start this online Journal, in the hope that it may be of assistance to others.
This disease really got the better of me this week.
I call it a disease because my body in definitely not at ease with this illness.
However when I say that, this disorder has been the reason behind my Spiritual Journey and my connection to God, in a much more simple way.
So here I am.
I meditate.
I breathe.
I speak and think positive thoughts.
Yet this week...
More fatigue...
Plus...
Plus...
So I found myself being extremely disappointed in my decline...
Anyone who has Chronic Fatigue, will relate to...
It's not about being tired or sleepy...
More like being in, a constant state of flu like symptoms...
No amount of sleep or relaxation helps...
So to go to my specialist and be given a lot of potential illnesses that can develop, sent me into more of a spin and even more disappointment in myself.
Perhaps up until this week, I may have been living in denial.
Most people don't even believe that it's an illness.
So now, I start again on a fairly strict regime of medication, low G.I. diet, limited sun and possible triggers of even more symptoms.
The hope is, that this regime will slow down or kill the bacteria that is responsible for this illness with-in my body.
So if you know of someone ,who may have Chronic Fatigue, or any other energy disorder, please be patient and kind to them...
In Love.
Rose

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THE THREE ASPECTS OF ME! (30.08.09)

While resting last night, the following became very clear to me, so I'll explain as simply as I remember it.
As most of you know I write on three different blogs and last night it became clear to me that some might think, how can this woman have Chronic Fatigue and still write entries elsewhere.
So...
My CF journal is very much about My Body...
My Breathing blog is about My Mind...
My I AM ROSE blog is My Spiritual connection to God....
All of these are aspects of Me, these blogs expose...
The Whole of Me...
My Body...Mind and Spirit.
How you might ask?
Read my entries and you'll find out.
The fatigue is what brought me to this place of... Stillness...Silence and Reflection...
So I thank the fatigue for this and I welcome the fatigue with Love...
It has served me well.
Now it is time to Live fully in...
The Now Moment.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

IT'S BEEN AWHILE


This place I call my journal has been calling me for the last week. It seems that I am writing here less and less.
Since my last entry so many events have happened. The most interesting is I was offered a job, something that I haven't done for the last five years because of CFS. I found here I chose actually to take the job, an easy choice of working in air-conditioning or being subject to constant power outages here (three in the last week). I know that electricity is very much a luxury, however when the temperature is well above 40c every day, I give thanks and gratitude that we live in a developed country.
The fatigue is intermittent and reminds me often to pace. I must say that working is definitely something I felt was behind me, so for now I'll monitor my energy level and choose appropriately. After five years I feel perhaps I'm one of the more fortunate with CFS, so for now I'm enjoying the company of others and eventually the income addtion to lighten the load of our expenditure.
My compassion and Love go out to All who read this. My hope is that in some way it adds hope to All with Chronic Illness.
In Love.
Rose

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Your journal and especially your photos are beautiful! I have been suffering with CFS for about 23 years. I sympathize with what you are going through, and I wish you well. There are a lot of people going through similar experiences. If you want to hear how some of us are doing, you might want to check out the Phoenix Rising forum at http://forums.aboutmecfs.org/

Thank you for sharing your experience and your beautiful words and photos.

--Patricia

I AM ROSE said...

Thanks for your comment Patricia and I will check out that link.
In Love.
Rose

Renee said...

Good to read another post from you Rose. Glad to see you are feeling well enough to work some now. You photos are beautiful as usual.

I AM ROSE said...

Renee.
Thanks for your kind words.
In Love.
Rose

Renee said...

Hi Rose
I just wanted to thank you for posting on my blog...but also let you know that I could not open the post...it was strange...and when I closed out and went back later to try and read it and publish it..it was gone! Sorry!!! Computer gliche!
Take care
Renee

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My hope is that All who visit, benefit in some way from my own experience of this mysterious energy disorder.
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