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I 've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for almost five years.
Today I made the decision to start this online Journal, in the hope that it may be of assistance to others.
This disease really got the better of me this week.
I call it a disease because my body in definitely not at ease with this illness.
However when I say that, this disorder has been the reason behind my Spiritual Journey and my connection to God, in a much more simple way.
So here I am.
I meditate.
I breathe.
I speak and think positive thoughts.
Yet this week...
More fatigue...
Plus...
Plus...
So I found myself being extremely disappointed in my decline...
Anyone who has Chronic Fatigue, will relate to...
It's not about being tired or sleepy...
More like being in, a constant state of flu like symptoms...
No amount of sleep or relaxation helps...
So to go to my specialist and be given a lot of potential illnesses that can develop, sent me into more of a spin and even more disappointment in myself.
Perhaps up until this week, I may have been living in denial.
Most people don't even believe that it's an illness.
So now, I start again on a fairly strict regime of medication, low G.I. diet, limited sun and possible triggers of even more symptoms.
The hope is, that this regime will slow down or kill the bacteria that is responsible for this illness with-in my body.
So if you know of someone ,who may have Chronic Fatigue, or any other energy disorder, please be patient and kind to them...
In Love.
Rose

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THE THREE ASPECTS OF ME! (30.08.09)

While resting last night, the following became very clear to me, so I'll explain as simply as I remember it.
As most of you know I write on three different blogs and last night it became clear to me that some might think, how can this woman have Chronic Fatigue and still write entries elsewhere.
So...
My CF journal is very much about My Body...
My Breathing blog is about My Mind...
My I AM ROSE blog is My Spiritual connection to God....
All of these are aspects of Me, these blogs expose...
The Whole of Me...
My Body...Mind and Spirit.
How you might ask?
Read my entries and you'll find out.
The fatigue is what brought me to this place of... Stillness...Silence and Reflection...
So I thank the fatigue for this and I welcome the fatigue with Love...
It has served me well.
Now it is time to Live fully in...
The Now Moment.

Friday, July 31, 2009

DAY 23

Frustration ++++ today.
After waking from a very restless nights sleep, it was lovely to hear the Magpie's singing so merrily this morning.
I heard a tinkering of sorts outside and wondered what it was.
Well it didn't take long for us to find out that our water had been cut off to the house, hum!!!
Just as well we have some bottled water always on hand in the fridge, this made it possible for me to have my vitamins and morning cuppa.
I actually didn't feel that fatigued until my husband got back from a Chiropractic appointment, very annoyed because our private health declined the fee charged. On further investigation and a lot of very angry exchanges (something I try and avoid these days, because it depletes my energy very quickly) I was told that we weren't financial and to our horror they wanted six weeks payment to bring us up to date.
They were very quick to blame us and really left us both dumb foundered and pondering if it's really worth having or not.
Money is very tight, I don't work because of the fatigue and J is on a very low income, which we're very grateful for and most of the time, we manage. This though put us in a very tight spot even though the health provider did wave a little of the fee, but we still had to pay more than what we felt we should have.
At the end of the conversation, she was only interested in getting their money and kept repeating
"I have helped you today"
She wasn't interested in the fact that this is actually the third time they have mucked up (that's the only polite word I could think of here).
Any way.
How has this affected me?
No great guesses here...
Yep .
Fatigue +++.
So for today...
It really doesn't matter.
Hum.....
Lot's to breathe with today...
In Love.
Rose

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