CHRONIC FATIGUE JOURNAL: FEELINGS AND BALANCING

WELCOME

I 've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for almost five years.
Today I made the decision to start this online Journal, in the hope that it may be of assistance to others.
This disease really got the better of me this week.
I call it a disease because my body in definitely not at ease with this illness.
However when I say that, this disorder has been the reason behind my Spiritual Journey and my connection to God, in a much more simple way.
So here I am.
I meditate.
I breathe.
I speak and think positive thoughts.
Yet this week...
More fatigue...
Plus...
Plus...
So I found myself being extremely disappointed in my decline...
Anyone who has Chronic Fatigue, will relate to...
It's not about being tired or sleepy...
More like being in, a constant state of flu like symptoms...
No amount of sleep or relaxation helps...
So to go to my specialist and be given a lot of potential illnesses that can develop, sent me into more of a spin and even more disappointment in myself.
Perhaps up until this week, I may have been living in denial.
Most people don't even believe that it's an illness.
So now, I start again on a fairly strict regime of medication, low G.I. diet, limited sun and possible triggers of even more symptoms.
The hope is, that this regime will slow down or kill the bacteria that is responsible for this illness with-in my body.
So if you know of someone ,who may have Chronic Fatigue, or any other energy disorder, please be patient and kind to them...
In Love.
Rose

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THE THREE ASPECTS OF ME! (30.08.09)

While resting last night, the following became very clear to me, so I'll explain as simply as I remember it.
As most of you know I write on three different blogs and last night it became clear to me that some might think, how can this woman have Chronic Fatigue and still write entries elsewhere.
So...
My CF journal is very much about My Body...
My Breathing blog is about My Mind...
My I AM ROSE blog is My Spiritual connection to God....
All of these are aspects of Me, these blogs expose...
The Whole of Me...
My Body...Mind and Spirit.
How you might ask?
Read my entries and you'll find out.
The fatigue is what brought me to this place of... Stillness...Silence and Reflection...
So I thank the fatigue for this and I welcome the fatigue with Love...
It has served me well.
Now it is time to Live fully in...
The Now Moment.

Monday, February 22, 2010

FEELINGS AND BALANCING

WOW!!!
I'm feeling very flat and low energy at the moment...
We have been extremely busy with the purchasing of a home up here in the heart centre of Australia...
My bloods say I'm fighting an infection at this time, the doctor up here isn't too concerned about this, in a way it's good as my immune system is working better than what it has done for a while now ( so good news???).
We are going back to Sth. Aust. on Thursday to de- clutter in preparation for our furniture to be transported up here, so lot's happening and feelings of overwhelm don't escape me right now.
I'm finding it extremely difficult to drive once again, however I am staying positive, as I am familiar with feelings of excitement for having recent restored energy.
Currently listening to relaxation music, breathing in Life and God's Love and remembering to pace myself.
Love to you all and I hope for better news and a more positive post next time.
Heart to Heart Love.
Rose

1 comment:

Renee said...: Fun to see a picture of you Rose. Glad to hear your move is going forward..how exciting for you guys.
Hope you feel okay soon.; February 26, 2010 at 11:42 AM