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I 've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for almost five years.
Today I made the decision to start this online Journal, in the hope that it may be of assistance to others.
This disease really got the better of me this week.
I call it a disease because my body in definitely not at ease with this illness.
However when I say that, this disorder has been the reason behind my Spiritual Journey and my connection to God, in a much more simple way.
So here I am.
I meditate.
I breathe.
I speak and think positive thoughts.
Yet this week...
More fatigue...
Plus...
Plus...
So I found myself being extremely disappointed in my decline...
Anyone who has Chronic Fatigue, will relate to...
It's not about being tired or sleepy...
More like being in, a constant state of flu like symptoms...
No amount of sleep or relaxation helps...
So to go to my specialist and be given a lot of potential illnesses that can develop, sent me into more of a spin and even more disappointment in myself.
Perhaps up until this week, I may have been living in denial.
Most people don't even believe that it's an illness.
So now, I start again on a fairly strict regime of medication, low G.I. diet, limited sun and possible triggers of even more symptoms.
The hope is, that this regime will slow down or kill the bacteria that is responsible for this illness with-in my body.
So if you know of someone ,who may have Chronic Fatigue, or any other energy disorder, please be patient and kind to them...
In Love.
Rose

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THE THREE ASPECTS OF ME! (30.08.09)

While resting last night, the following became very clear to me, so I'll explain as simply as I remember it.
As most of you know I write on three different blogs and last night it became clear to me that some might think, how can this woman have Chronic Fatigue and still write entries elsewhere.
So...
My CF journal is very much about My Body...
My Breathing blog is about My Mind...
My I AM ROSE blog is My Spiritual connection to God....
All of these are aspects of Me, these blogs expose...
The Whole of Me...
My Body...Mind and Spirit.
How you might ask?
Read my entries and you'll find out.
The fatigue is what brought me to this place of... Stillness...Silence and Reflection...
So I thank the fatigue for this and I welcome the fatigue with Love...
It has served me well.
Now it is time to Live fully in...
The Now Moment.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

DAY 51-53


I attended the breath testing appointment and I think everything was O.K. I'll find out the results when the doctor has them. After this we had a short walk on the beach, the sun was shining the water looked beautiful and it was quite warm here, about 21c. The sun felt hot on my head and since we're more or less still in winter this surprised me. The first day of spring is Tuesday.
We then met with friends for lunch, this was a great lift to my spirit, the fatigue was put on the back burner.
That night after a relaxation and breathing session, I decided to add some entries on the laptop, then WHAM!!!!
I had a blinding headache and I mean I couldn't see a thing. I had to go straight to bed. I am all too familiar with migraine headaches, so this was definitely a place where I don't care to revisit.
Anyway the last two day I've been very flat and still getting over the set back.
So to add some cheer to this entry, I'll share with you all the beauty of the ocean that day.
In Love.
Rose

2 comments:

Renee said...

Beautiful picture of the ocean, Rose.
So sorry you had to deal with a migraine...it sounds awful. Lifting you up in prayer,.

I AM ROSE said...

Thanks with Love Renee for your kind words and prayers.

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